Being in a very destructive religious cult is difficult to the extreme, it’s even worse when you leave. As the saying goes, you can take the person out of the cult, but you can’t take the cult out of the person. It is a journey of healing. I used to dislike the word, “journey”, because it insinuated that this healing process would take a long time. Now I have accepted that it is a journey. It has been a gift from God of discovering who I am. This is a lifelong journey that is one I refuse to give up on. There are times when I am tired to the bone and absolutely full of fear and terror of the outside world; that world that most call life.